After the 1988 vote, in the rush to clarify what the decision didn’t signal, it failed to hold up what the vote was about. The emphasis was placed on reassuring people with prejudices that they could hold on to them. Churches were reassured that they did not have to call gay or lesbian ministers. People became much more afraid of losing donors and congregants than of losing gay christians. It really highlighted to me the absense of welcome and the absence of safety for myself as a lesbian christian. It took me a number of decades to want to come back to church.